no more. probably.

Alright, I realize that I'm running out of stuff to say. So I'm going to put this blog on ice for a while, at least until I actually have something to write about. :P

But thanks for visiting my blog anyway!

Love y'all
hhmmbubbye

// Angie

Summer!

Well, now my last summer break is here. I finally have a couple months to fully focus on losing those last few kgs, although so far, I'm not exactly doing it very efficiently xD hehe, sue me. 
Oh well.  But it sure is nice that the weather is finally allowing me to get out more, there's nothing worse than trying to powerwalk in the winter - waddling across the ice like a retarded penguin! ^^

No more of that now! Atleast for another half year ;) 

I have noticed on the other hand that I'm happy with how I look from the side. That's all well and good for me. But looking at me facing forward, I still look too. . . wide xD Not for long! I'm going to beat this, once and for all! *tagga!*




Graduation!

Yesterday was amazing, so much fun! :D I can't believe it, I'm finally here - the real world after graduation! xD
I've said goodbye to my friends and teachers, I'll miss them all terribly. But we have a lot of great memories, and hopefully we'll have a class reunion eventually. 

After the actual graduation ceremony, we all got on the back of a truck equipped with the biggest, loudest speakers we could get ahold of. We drank our champagne and danced while the truck drove through Degerfors. It was a fantastic feeling, I wish I could go back and do it all again! ^^

When I got home, my in-laws were all there to celebrate with cake and goodies, that was so nice! :) I just wish I had taken it a bit easier with the champagne on the truck ride, I'm pretty sure I embarrassed myself pretty bad in front of Keijos family xD Oh well, life goes on!


online photo album

I just realized this is no longer a blog, it's become more or less an online photo album for all my crappy blurry phonecam pictures! xD Oh well, here I go again:



little brother


Nearly 17 years old, how did he grow up so fast? :O

Suggestion for Nintendo? ;) jk


Thank you =3

On days when I'm too weak to deal with myself, you're strong enough for the both of us. When I feel like I'm at the top of the world, you're right there to cheer with me. You are the warm comfort that I fall alseep next to every night, the first thing I wake up to, and the one who is there for me no matter what. I love you Keijo, and I can't imagine this world without you.
Thank you for entering my life <3

The future and beyond

When I was a kid, I always felt like I had everything planned out so well. I had my whole future mapped out, I knew exactly what I wanted. Now, I feel like I've reached all the big milestones, all I have left is to get into a University, graduate, and eventually get a job that suits me. Then what?

:-/ And who am I in the meantime? What if I don't get accepted at all? 

One minute I'm an adult, the next minute I'm just a little girl. xD Once I know what I want, I change my mind and feel lost again. What do I have to do to stay on track?
Everyone else seems to manage it all so well, where was I when everyone else recieved the feeling of completeness?


Recent change

I'm trying something new in my effort to become more balanced, and so I'll be less difficult to deal with (both for myself and those around me). It feels good to know that things will finally change, and that soon I won't be a mental rollercoaster anymore - I'm only a few months away from achieving stabillity in my life.
For many, what defines who I am is my "up and down" personality. Who will I be when "up and down" isn't me anymore? Hopefully a more focused, calm, genuinely happy version of who I am now. :) I really love this picture below, I like the idea of "jumping out of my current bowl and into new waters". ^^

To quote myself

Taken from my other (less interesting/important/useful) blog

When feeling negative about my weight, I used to write in a journal about how disgusting I look, how repulsive I am, what an eyesore I am to everyone around me. I drew pictures of myself (cartooned to look ten times bigger than I really was) just to tease myself.
Ironically, I called this my inspirational journal. I thought that by insulting myself to no end, I'd finally be so ashamed of myself that I'd be forced to get on a gruelling diet and stay on it until I was thin. While dieting, I'd read the pages over and over again to remind myself why I was depriving myself of the foods I love.
I was sure that becoming a thinner me meant becoming a better me. That somehow I'd be a better friend, family member, wife, classmate, whatever -  if I lost weight.
Looking at those words now, I have to ask myself "Where was my brain when I created that idea??". Obviously logic isn't my strong side, but in time, I recognized that I had the wrong idea alltogether. A persons value shouldn't be based on appearance, and if I wasn't judging others by apearance, why should I judge myself that way? And if someone DID see me as less valueable because of my weight, they obviously aren't people I'd want in my life ANYWAY.
It took me a long time to get here. To be able to look at myself in the mirror and see that I'm a valuable human being, with just a few extra pounds to carry around. Nothing less. Sure, I'm still making an effort to drop the last pounds, but it's not the main focus in my life anymore. I now understand that I AM allowed to love who I am, regardless of what I look like.
I wish I could tell you exactly how I got to that frame of mind. But to be honest, I can't pinpoint it.
I know that the biggest help for me was the encouragement and endless conversations with my friends, family, and husband. I can't even count how many hours they all spent, constantly telling me over and over again that my weight never has and never will affect how they feel about me. Most of the time it all went in one ear, out the other, I didn't believe them. I was sure they were all just saying that to be polite, I didn't let myself understand that they were telling the truth. But when I finally allowed their words to sink in, it made all the difference.
I still relapse into negative thinking, I still have that "inspirational journal" on my bookshelf.
But 80 % of the time, I can leave it on the shelf and remember that I am not the worthless waste of space that I wrote about.
I am Angie, a student, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a friend. I love litterature and music, I have plans for the future, I enjoy long walks in the forest, and sitting in fancy cafe's sipping overpriced lattes. I love to draw, I hope to one day buy a proper camera so I can take fantastic pictures to keep forever, I hope to one day publish a book of my own.
What defines me is who I am, not how I think I look.

:(


Ego monkey xD

My husband and sister-in-law spent 5 1/2 hours on my hair, and it turned out fabulous! ^^ LOVE IT!! Hopefully all the braids stay tidy and un-frizzed as long as possible, I want to keep this style in for at least a month :)
Here is yet another batch of gritty, low quality pictures for y'all to endure ;)
ego monkey indeed xD hihi

Steamzoo

Thanks to my new favorite app - streamzoo - I can do a whole lot more with my (gritty, low quality) pictures! :D Examples:
Check this one out: taken just this morning ^^ My sister in law and I spent five hours braiding in all the synthetic dreads :)

More artsy junk! :D

Here's my semi-chibi drawing of my sister-in-law Malin and her baby Elliott. ^^ He really does have a "bear suit" which was just too precious not to draw! :D
My favorite meme from www.memebase.com ^^
New version of the same doodle I posted earlier! :D

New glasses!



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Angie Renberg

Welcome to my blog! :) My name is Angie, I'm 19, graduated June 2012 from the Child Behavior and Development program in Sweden, married to my Prince Charming - Keijo - since May 22nd 2011. I live in a small apartment with my darling and two precious kitties, Zid and Stella. This blog is about my life, odd thoughts I want to rant off from time to time, and of course, tons of pictures. Feel free to comment any time! :D

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