Finding myself

Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves. ~Henry David Thoreau

Is that so? Well I've got news for you buddy, so you better be listening close - I've never been more lost in my life and I don't understand anything at all anymore. I don't understand who I am or what's going on in my life right now. I don't understand who I'm supposed to be and how I'm supposed to get there. I don't even understand what I want anymore, which quite frankly, scares me to death.

I feel like such a spoiled little jerk because I don't actually have anything to complain about. Think about all the starving children in africa, the frightened families in war-torn countries, the helpless victims of abuse. Compared to them, I'm living the dream.

So why do I still feel incomplete? What's missing? I'm hungering for something, trying to fill a very painful void, but I have absolutely no idea what caused it or what the cure is. It's driving me insane and becoming a barrier between myself and the ones I love. How can you comfort someone who doesn't know why she's crying?

So tell me, Mr. Thoreau, if I never learn to understand myself, does that mean I'll be lost forever?

:( Can I imagine life forever lost?

Kommentarer
Postat av: Nneka Russell

i know i've said it before, but i am positive you are my clone... i feel the same way, only you put it into words that i could never express. :(

2011-11-16 @ 02:22:14
Postat av: Angie

<3 I've recently been told that all of us feel this way at one time or another, we're not alone. But no one can seem to tell me how they got rid of it :S what a world we live in! ;)

2011-11-16 @ 08:57:55
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